When Nature Is Not Enough
    When Nature Is Not Enough

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    Name: Liz
    Location: New York

    I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew.

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    Monday, May 09, 2005

    Love What You Have Not What You Want

    I've been trying to accept that I will not be able to conceive normally and will have to conceive through IVF. I'm angry but I'm starting to come to terms with that. I want to at least have some positive feelings about it.

    I've decided to stop dwelling on "IVF" and try to be happy that I have that option. So it won't be the way I had imagined but if this is what I have to do in order to have a baby then I will do it. I know in the end it will be worth all the pain, physical and emotional.

    We get so caught up on what we want and how we want things to be that we sometimes lose focus. I know I have. I'm focusing so much on my "infertility" that it is making me an angry person. I don't have much enjoyment because I don't allow myself...it's hard to be happy when you are so angry.

    So, I want to replace my anger with positive thoughts. I want to take the time to enjoy what I have and not have regrets later on. I know this happens to all of us.

    I will try to live my life by the following thoughts: Love what you have, not what you want.


    | posted by Liz at 8:17 PM |


    3 Comments:

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 10:02 PM~  

    Love what you have, not what you want....I like that very much. I'm glad you are trying to change how you feel about IVF. I know it's not what you ever imagined and I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 11:06 PM~  

    I like that saying very much! We take for granted what we have and feel there is something missing and we don't appreciate what is in front of us.

    I know accepting that IVF is your only option for conceiving is a difficult thing. Don't ignore those feelings and take time to process them and heal.

    Blogger Ally commented at 8:36 AM~  

    Liz,

    I wrote a post on my blog about Attitude. I wish you would read it. It has helped me alot. It can definately put a better spin on the struggles of TTC.

    I'm praying for ya that IVF works!!

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