About Me

Name: Liz

Location: New York

I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew.

I can't believe Mother's Day is here and I'm not a mother. Here I am no where closer to being a mother than I was a year ago. I'm angry and sad...it just seems unfair. I'm trying to be patient. I know things happen for a reason and I know, at least I hope, that next year I will be a mother.

In the morning I will go with Ivan to the cemetary to visit his mother's grave. I feel selfish for feeling sad because I don't have a baby and he's still grieving the loss of his mother. It's just so hard. I'll visit my mother and celebrate what a wonderful mother she has been. Although I love my mother dearly I wish I could stay home and cry.

Everywhere I look there is a baby or someone pregnant. WHEN, WHEN, WILL IT BE ME?!?!

I'm trying not to get too overwhelmed with all my feelings but lately it's been getting harder. Little by little I'm becoming undone and I think eventually I will lose it.

When Nature Is Not Enough
IVF will hopefully bring us the miracle we are waiting for.
About Me Name: Liz Location: New York I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew. View my complete profile	Sunday, May 08, 2005 Mother's Day and I'm Not a Mother I can't believe Mother's Day is here and I'm not a mother. Here I am no where closer to being a mother than I was a year ago. I'm angry and sad...it just seems unfair. I'm trying to be patient. I know things happen for a reason and I know, at least I hope, that next year I will be a mother. In the morning I will go with Ivan to the cemetary to visit his mother's grave. I feel selfish for feeling sad because I don't have a baby and he's still grieving the loss of his mother. It's just so hard. I'll visit my mother and celebrate what a wonderful mother she has been. Although I love my mother dearly I wish I could stay home and cry. Everywhere I look there is a baby or someone pregnant. WHEN, WHEN, WILL IT BE ME?!?! I'm trying not to get too overwhelmed with all my feelings but lately it's been getting harder. Little by little I'm becoming undone and I think eventually I will lose it. \| posted by Liz at 12:30 AM \| back to main page
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