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Name: Liz

Location: New York

I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew.

Nothing new to report since my post on PW…still losing it.

Went to the clinic today. U/S looked okay, not too much of a difference from yesterday but she stated it didn’t show I had ovulated. Today’s b/w will be the determining factor. They will call after 4:00 to let me know if I can continue or the cycle will be cancelled…the waiting is so hard. I’m tired, drained…. I just don’t feel anything…I don’t want to feel anything.

I had a good cry last night and was able to start processing things. It helped but in a way I know I'm just trying to rationalize things. It's hard when the meds make me so emotional, more sad than anything else. I know the anger is based on my disappointment and disappointed I am.

What a process…I knew it was going to be hard but until you are in it you just don’t know. I guess I will be prepared for next time…YES, I think there will be a next time.

When Nature Is Not Enough
IVF will hopefully bring us the miracle we are waiting for.
About Me Name: Liz Location: New York I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew. View my complete profile	Tuesday, July 26, 2005 No hope left.... Nothing new to report since my post on PW…still losing it. Went to the clinic today. U/S looked okay, not too much of a difference from yesterday but she stated it didn’t show I had ovulated. Today’s b/w will be the determining factor. They will call after 4:00 to let me know if I can continue or the cycle will be cancelled…the waiting is so hard. I’m tired, drained…. I just don’t feel anything…I don’t want to feel anything. I had a good cry last night and was able to start processing things. It helped but in a way I know I'm just trying to rationalize things. It's hard when the meds make me so emotional, more sad than anything else. I know the anger is based on my disappointment and disappointed I am. What a process…I knew it was going to be hard but until you are in it you just don’t know. I guess I will be prepared for next time…YES, I think there will be a next time. \| posted by Liz at 12:10 PM \| 2 Comments: Anonymous commented at 12:37 PM~ WHAT?!! Liz I am so sorry...I know this is very frustrating. I pray that you will get good news today. P.S. I responsed to your email. Please call when you get your results and THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO SHUT PEOPLE OUT....I WANT TO BE HERE FOR YOU. Many cyber hugs to you. Ally commented at 3:04 PM~ Hey Liz, DOn't be discouraged...it'll all work out, I'm sure. Stay focused and if you need anything, please let me know. Want to Post a Comment? back to main page
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