- Name: Liz
- Location: New York
I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew.
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Saturday, August 27, 2005
Feeling very down
Today has been very hard for me. It's actually the first day I've been alone. As much as I wanted to be alone it has been very hard. I'm so angry and I don't want to be angry anymore. The pain seems to be getting worse. I feel so alone and I just don't have any hope. I went back to a board I use to go to (Hannah's Prayer) in the hopes that it would help me. I stopped going around the same time that I stopped praying. I want to have faith, I want to believe, I want to trust that through God all things are possible but right now it is very hard. I'm searching for a way to find the courage and the strength to face each day. I know it will be a long journey and I realize that right now I can't do it on my own.
| posted by Liz at 1:28 PM |
6 Comments:
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commented at 4:07 PM~
I'm sorry for your loss and all that you are going through. I will pray that God comfort you. I know it's hard right now but please try to believe that he is with you and yes, through him all things are possible.
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commented at 5:02 PM~
Some reading to help stregnthen your faith and help you remember you are not alone.
Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. Psalms 27:14
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. 2 Cor.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28
Submit to God and be at peace with Him; in this way prosperity will come to you. Job 22:21
But I trust in you, O LORD; I say, "You are my God." My times are in your hands. Psalm 31: 14&15
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer. Romans 12:12
I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me! Phil 4:13
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD , plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13
Be joyful in hope; patient in affliction; persistent in prayer. Romans 12:12
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Jenna commented at 12:51 AM~
Liz, I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time. I wish that there was something I could say that could bring you comfort. I hate that this is so unfair and so hard. You are in my thoughts and prayers, if you need to talk please don't hesitate to call. Luv, Jenna
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Heather P. commented at 8:38 AM~
Liz this is what I wrote to my DH 2 weeks after we lost Lorna. I do hope it makes you feel better to know that someone else has been in your shoes too. I understand.
We are starting fresh and new. Down a road we have traveled already. Together and only Together Will we be able to handle the journey.
We will get to the end of the rainbow someday. Together we will get there. Our dreams will come true. We will hold a baby of our own.
Together we can do anything. Together we can be strong. Together we will get thru. Together you and I will have the baby we so want.
We have a tough road ahead of us. We have to be strong. We have to stay united together Only then will we be able to conquer the road of infertility.
I ended the letter with a message to him of how much he meant to me during our loss. I hope that it helps to know that starting again. Back at the starting line is difficult and very hard to do.
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Ally commented at 6:39 PM~
Liz,
I really wish there was something I could do to make you feel better. Just remember you always have a friend in me...for whatever you need.
Thinking of ya,
Love Ally
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Sporty commented at 12:22 PM~
I wish that there were something that I could do for you Liz. Please just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and if you need anything, let me know.
Take care
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