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Name: Liz

Location: New York

I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew.

As per my doctor, I need to have a little caution. I went today for my second beta and prayed and crossed everything I possibly could so that it would double but it didn't. When the dr called that was the first clue that it wasn't going to be good news....always the pessimist.

On Monday (day 12 ) my beta was 53.2 and today (day 15) it is only 89.8. If it had doubled at the rate it is suppose to it would have been 132. The doctor said the pregnancy is progressing at a rate of 59%. We discussed what she thinks might be happening...there was no way I was going to hang up without having an idea of what they are speculating. She said I might be miscarrying a twin, it could be another ectopic, or the pregnancy can just be developing slowly and go on to be a normal pregnancy. Right now all they can do is guess and have me continue doing betas. I have to go back on Saturday for another beta.

Obviously I am starting to worry. This just reminds me of the ectopic and how it progressed very slowly for weeks before I had the methotrexate shot. I recall how when we started this cycle the doctor had forewarned us that we would have to be cautiously optimistic because of the chances of another ectopic. I'm numb; I don't want to worry because the stress will not be good.

So here I am now proceeding with caution. But how does one truly do that? It is so easy for them to say to be cautious when they don't have to worry. They are not the ones that have waited so long and now when a BFP is finally here cannot rejoice in happiness.

When Nature Is Not Enough
IVF will hopefully bring us the miracle we are waiting for.
About Me Name: Liz Location: New York I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew. View my complete profile	Thursday, August 18, 2005 Proceeding with caution As per my doctor, I need to have a little caution. I went today for my second beta and prayed and crossed everything I possibly could so that it would double but it didn't. When the dr called that was the first clue that it wasn't going to be good news....always the pessimist. On Monday (day 12 ) my beta was 53.2 and today (day 15) it is only 89.8. If it had doubled at the rate it is suppose to it would have been 132. The doctor said the pregnancy is progressing at a rate of 59%. We discussed what she thinks might be happening...there was no way I was going to hang up without having an idea of what they are speculating. She said I might be miscarrying a twin, it could be another ectopic, or the pregnancy can just be developing slowly and go on to be a normal pregnancy. Right now all they can do is guess and have me continue doing betas. I have to go back on Saturday for another beta. Obviously I am starting to worry. This just reminds me of the ectopic and how it progressed very slowly for weeks before I had the methotrexate shot. I recall how when we started this cycle the doctor had forewarned us that we would have to be cautiously optimistic because of the chances of another ectopic. I'm numb; I don't want to worry because the stress will not be good. So here I am now proceeding with caution. But how does one truly do that? It is so easy for them to say to be cautious when they don't have to worry. They are not the ones that have waited so long and now when a BFP is finally here cannot rejoice in happiness. \| posted by Liz at 7:34 PM \| 5 Comments: Anonymous commented at 9:20 PM~ Ugh- I'm sorry. I'm voting for the miscarrying twin, one is okay scenario. Sending hugs across the Internet(s). Jenna commented at 12:43 AM~ Liz - this pregnancy is your BIG FAT MIRICLE, so I am hoping and praying that this baby will stay that way. I can't imagine how hard this must be. I am here for you if you need me. I wish that there was more that I could do. You are in my thoughts, and hope we get to talk soon. Hugs, Jenna Allie commented at 9:43 AM~ Oh, Honey. I'm so sorry. I know what this feels like. It's hell. Playing the BETA game is the worst. Let's pray that it's the twin thing, or that your next BETA triples. I will pray for you and think of you all weekend. Anonymous commented at 6:52 PM~ I am so sorry for all that you are going through. It truly has been an emotional roller coaster. I hope tomorrow's beta will double/triple!! Ally commented at 8:32 AM~ Liz, Call me today. Let me know how the beta comes out. Thinking of you. Want to Post a Comment? back to main page
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