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Name: Liz

Location: New York

I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew.

I'm feeling better. The sadness is starting to settle and the anger is slowly chipping away. I have to believe that there was a reason for this although it caused me much pain. I'm starting to feel better about moving forward. I will always have fears but I can't let them stop me .... I won't give up!

I'm looking into going away for our 3rd wedding anniversary but can't make any definite plans until we meet with the Dr on Thursday. If we can start the next cycle then it will be around that time. I definitely want to do something for our anniversary and would like to go to London or Prague for a week but I'm okay with doing something nearby.

What a year this has been. I remember how I felt a year ago when the BFNs were just starting. The pain is still there but it is different. Am I stronger? I think so... I have to be.

Reading Jenna's blog entry today stirred up so many feelings, especially about God. I don't want to be angry and I want to hold on to my faith, which has been dwindling. I know he is comforting me and giving me the strength to face each day. I'll never know why I had to go through IF only he knows, maybe one day we'll talk about it. Where's the lesson in all of this....still searching.

Thank you all so much for your support, encouragement and comforting words. You have walked with me in this long journey and have helped me when I've been at my lowest. My blog friends...you are all wonderful and much appreciated.

When Nature Is Not Enough
IVF will hopefully bring us the miracle we are waiting for.
About Me Name: Liz Location: New York I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew. View my complete profile	Thursday, September 01, 2005 A New Beginning I'm feeling better. The sadness is starting to settle and the anger is slowly chipping away. I have to believe that there was a reason for this although it caused me much pain. I'm starting to feel better about moving forward. I will always have fears but I can't let them stop me .... I won't give up! I'm looking into going away for our 3rd wedding anniversary but can't make any definite plans until we meet with the Dr on Thursday. If we can start the next cycle then it will be around that time. I definitely want to do something for our anniversary and would like to go to London or Prague for a week but I'm okay with doing something nearby. What a year this has been. I remember how I felt a year ago when the BFNs were just starting. The pain is still there but it is different. Am I stronger? I think so... I have to be. Reading Jenna's blog entry today stirred up so many feelings, especially about God. I don't want to be angry and I want to hold on to my faith, which has been dwindling. I know he is comforting me and giving me the strength to face each day. I'll never know why I had to go through IF only he knows, maybe one day we'll talk about it. Where's the lesson in all of this....still searching. Thank you all so much for your support, encouragement and comforting words. You have walked with me in this long journey and have helped me when I've been at my lowest. My blog friends...you are all wonderful and much appreciated. \| posted by Liz at 7:18 PM \| 5 Comments: Jenna commented at 11:36 PM~ I am really glad that you are not giving up, you have come to far. I am glad that you are starting to feel better. I hate IF but I do appreciate the people that I have met. I really enjoy our talks. They have ment a lot to me. I hope that you get to go somewhere for your anniversary. I know that you and Ivan really need to get away. Your in my thoughts. Hope to talk to you tomorrow. Jenna Anonymous commented at 1:12 PM~ It sounds as if things are getting better for you...I'm so happy. It's unfortunate that we all have to go through this and I pray that we all will get our blessings very soon. Ally commented at 1:38 PM~ I'm glad you're starting to get thirough this difficult time. Just know you have the support of me and all the IPP ladies. Take care and keep in touch. Anonymous commented at 11:04 PM~ I'm glad you are feeling better. I know it's hard to move forward when there is a lot to fear. Don't give up and remember you've got a lot of people cheering you on. Sporty commented at 9:13 AM~ I am so glad that you are beginning to pull through this Liz. If you need anything, let me know. Take care of yourself! Want to Post a Comment? back to main page
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