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Name: Liz

Location: New York

I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew.

8 days past transfer....it is getting to me. I'm anxious and starting to lose hope. Yesterday I had some bleeding and today it's spotting. I hate this!!! I'm trying to believe that it might be implantation bleeding but it is so hard.

On Friday I will know if I'm PG. I have to admit that now I'm starting to feel the anxiety. I know that right now I am or I'm not. They have snuggled in or they are somewhere else. I will not test until Friday...I only have 1 more test left and I'm not going to buy any more...it will only make me worse. I hate not knowing...don't we all.

I've been doing my best to think positive thoughts but it was so hard last night when Ivan came home from work. I told him about the bleeding and right away he started talking about implantation bleeding. He is trying to be hopeful until the very end. We discussed the possibility that it might be a BFN but how do we truly prepare ourselves for that. It doesn't get better or easier. It's like the walls just come crashing down on you, dreams that won't become reality.

Okay, I must stop and only think positive thoughts. I will try to remind myself that for the next couple of days. All I can do is hope and not lose it. I can do that. Hopefully by the end of the week I will have great news to share.

When Nature Is Not Enough
IVF will hopefully bring us the miracle we are waiting for.
About Me Name: Liz Location: New York I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew. View my complete profile	Monday, November 07, 2005 Anxious and not too hopeful 8 days past transfer....it is getting to me. I'm anxious and starting to lose hope. Yesterday I had some bleeding and today it's spotting. I hate this!!! I'm trying to believe that it might be implantation bleeding but it is so hard. On Friday I will know if I'm PG. I have to admit that now I'm starting to feel the anxiety. I know that right now I am or I'm not. They have snuggled in or they are somewhere else. I will not test until Friday...I only have 1 more test left and I'm not going to buy any more...it will only make me worse. I hate not knowing...don't we all. I've been doing my best to think positive thoughts but it was so hard last night when Ivan came home from work. I told him about the bleeding and right away he started talking about implantation bleeding. He is trying to be hopeful until the very end. We discussed the possibility that it might be a BFN but how do we truly prepare ourselves for that. It doesn't get better or easier. It's like the walls just come crashing down on you, dreams that won't become reality. Okay, I must stop and only think positive thoughts. I will try to remind myself that for the next couple of days. All I can do is hope and not lose it. I can do that. Hopefully by the end of the week I will have great news to share. \| posted by Liz at 9:45 AM \| 6 Comments: Anonymous commented at 12:30 PM~ Hoping it's implantation bleeding. Don't lose hope!!! Jenna commented at 12:45 PM~ I hope that it is late implantation bleeding. I just hope you get a bfp this month. I know it is really hard to wait. I hope this week goes by really fast. You are in my thoguhts, i hope all is well. Jenna Anonymous commented at 1:52 PM~ The waiting is always so hard. Hang in there, Sporty commented at 2:50 PM~ I am sorry that the anxiety is starting Liz. I just wanted to let you know that I keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that you have a good news for you and Ivan on Friday. Take care. Allie commented at 5:19 PM~ The 2ww is definitely the hardest part. But I have hope that your body is just doing what it's supposed to do. I know it's easier said than done, but try and keep in mind that our IVF bodies are totally cray-zee and we can't speculate about what the spotting means. Hang in there. Hugs to you and Ivan. Ally commented at 10:55 PM~ Keep positive thoughts. It's not over til the fat lady screams AF!! :) Want to Post a Comment? back to main page
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