About Me

Name: Liz

Location: New York

I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew.

Blah best describes how I have been feeling. I'm not in the mood to do anything...I'm feeling down and irritable. As Ivan has mentioned, in the last couple of days everything is getting on my nerves. I'm just not happy with the way things are. I'm not happy with the place that I'm in.

My negative attitude is now affecting my job. I'm just not into it, I feel as if I'm in a rut. During my sessions I'm distracted, thinking about other things...of course all I think about is having a baby and the possibility that I might not have a child.

Yep, I'm really negative!!!!!

I even started considering looking for another job. After talking to Ivan I realize that would be a mistake. Starting a new job as I'm cycling would not be easy and maybe not even possible. Anway in the end I would feel the same.

I'm also starting to question my ability as a therapist. I love what I do and I know that I can help the kids but right now I'm not doing that. I know these feelings have to do with how I feel about myself and not being able to get PG.

I've felt this way before and I've overcome it....it's this darn IF roller coaster...we all know how that is. For now I will just suppress (that's what I do best) and hope that I will bounce back soon.

When Nature Is Not Enough
IVF will hopefully bring us the miracle we are waiting for.
About Me Name: Liz Location: New York I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew. View my complete profile	Wednesday, November 30, 2005 Blah Blah best describes how I have been feeling. I'm not in the mood to do anything...I'm feeling down and irritable. As Ivan has mentioned, in the last couple of days everything is getting on my nerves. I'm just not happy with the way things are. I'm not happy with the place that I'm in. My negative attitude is now affecting my job. I'm just not into it, I feel as if I'm in a rut. During my sessions I'm distracted, thinking about other things...of course all I think about is having a baby and the possibility that I might not have a child. Yep, I'm really negative!!!!! I even started considering looking for another job. After talking to Ivan I realize that would be a mistake. Starting a new job as I'm cycling would not be easy and maybe not even possible. Anway in the end I would feel the same. I'm also starting to question my ability as a therapist. I love what I do and I know that I can help the kids but right now I'm not doing that. I know these feelings have to do with how I feel about myself and not being able to get PG. I've felt this way before and I've overcome it....it's this darn IF roller coaster...we all know how that is. For now I will just suppress (that's what I do best) and hope that I will bounce back soon. \| posted by Liz at 12:57 PM \| 6 Comments: Anonymous commented at 4:11 PM~ Liz, I'm so sorry things have been so hard for you. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better. I'm here for you. Anonymous commented at 4:37 PM~ I've been there. Keep thinking about quitting and then realise I'm in no fit state to make a decision about my job. Hang in there. If you loved it before you can again. Anonymous commented at 10:49 PM~ When things go bad it starts affecting us in all aspects of our lives. I hope you will get through this soon. Thinking of you and wishing you well. Anonymous commented at 12:20 AM~ The IF roller coaster can be so draining and frustrating. I know things are rough right now for you...hope soon things will get better. Anonymous commented at 5:32 PM~ Sorry you're feeling down and it's affecting your job and life in general. I know how hard it is. I hope things will get better soon. P.S. Sorry I haven't been around much. Hugs Jenna commented at 6:41 AM~ I am right there with you. We will make it through this. I know we will. Hopefully in one piece. Thanks for always being there for me. I hope that I can do the same for you. Want to Post a Comment? back to main page
powered by Blogger \| designed by mela

About Me

6 Comments: