When Nature Is Not Enough
    When Nature Is Not Enough

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    About Me

    Name: Liz
    Location: New York

    I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew.

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    Friday, January 27, 2006

    Waiting

    We lost one of the embryos. It stopped developing yesterday afternoon. The one that is developing is a 4 cell with no fragmentation. The embryologist stated it is textbook perfect. She didn’t want to schedule a time for the transfer in case it didn’t continue to develop. I then stated that I was not going to transfer only one and we discussed combining it with one of the frozen blasts.

    I’m so frustrated with this process. Honestly I’m ready to just call it quits. Ivan was upset that I didn’t want to transfer the one that has developed and that we have to wait but at this point I think I’m entitled to make all the decisions. I’m the one going through everything.

    The uncertainty of all of this is nerve wracking. I can’t believe we’ve had so much difficulties with the 2nd and 3rd cycle. Maybe I should have just done a frozen right after the first and avoided all this. Our plan all along was to do 3 fresh cycles and freeze more and use our frozen blasts as our last option. It seems that’s where we are now…not very comforting.

    The embryologist was going to discuss it with the doctor and get back to me. If they are in agreement then the transfer will be on Monday.

    Update:
    We will be doing a day 5 transfer on Monday. The remaining embryo we have will be cultured and hopefully will develop into a blast where it then will be transferred with one of the popsicles. If it doesn't develop then we will transfer 3 pops.


    | posted by Liz at 1:31 PM |


    17 Comments:

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 1:45 PM~  

    Oh Liz, I'm so sorry it's been such a difficult road so far. I really hope this one works out. Even if you don't get to do the frozens this round, if (and that's a big if) you don't get pregnant with this one, the frozen ones will be available for you. I do understand the frustration though. :(

    Blogger Shell commented at 2:27 PM~  

    So sorry Liz~ it just isnt fair. I am here for you.....take care. Hoping everything works out for you!

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 3:02 PM~  

    Oh Liz, I'm so sorry things have to be so difficult. Hoping your perfect embie will continue to develop and you can transfer on Monday. {{HUGS}}

    Blogger Portlairge commented at 3:16 PM~  

    Liz I am so sorry at this turn of events. That is so unfair. I hoe everything works out ok for transfer on Monday

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 6:13 PM~  

    Liz, I know how frustrating all of this is. I hope things will go well on Monday.

    Blogger beagle commented at 8:32 PM~  

    Just dropping by to add my sypathies and my hope that this one hangs on for Monday.

    Blogger Jenn commented at 10:23 PM~  

    I am praying that your one little embryo is a fighter and will be the one to take. I am sorry for all of the pain you are going through. I hope the transfer goes smoothly.
    I am thinking about you.

    Blogger x commented at 11:24 AM~  

    I am so sorry this has been so hard. I'll be thinking of you and the frosties!

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 1:19 PM~  

    Oh I do hope that this one keeps going. I'm sorry this cycle has been so tough.

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 1:38 PM~  

    I'm sorry this has been such a difficult cycle for you. I'm hoping you never have to go through this again.
    Best of luck tomorrow - I'll be thinking of you.

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 3:48 PM~  

    Good luck tomorrow... I'll be eagerly awaiting an update.

    Blogger Shell commented at 10:41 AM~  

    Wishing you the best today!! Hope the transfer went well! take care of yourself over the next few days!!

    Blogger Fertility Faux Pas commented at 12:35 PM~  

    Liz, just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you and that I understand. I know how hard this is and I admire you for sticking it out. Best of luck with your transfer today.

    Blogger Kellie commented at 8:32 PM~  

    De-lurking to say that I hope everything went well today. You've been in my thoughts.

    Blogger Rebecca commented at 8:56 PM~  

    I am so sorry. I hope your fresh blast develops, and that you'll only need to transfer one of the pops.

    I know you're discouraged, but it's not over yet. Try to hang in there. We're all rooting for you!

    Blogger Allie commented at 9:17 AM~  

    Liz, I'm so sorry this cycle has been disappointing. I'm sure you've heard this over and over, and it's probably not what you want to hear, but... it only takes one. You still believe in miracles, I know you do. Keep praying. If anyone deserves a miracle, it's you.

    Blogger beagle commented at 12:06 PM~  

    Good Luck today, Monday . . . thinking of you.

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