When Nature Is Not Enough
    When Nature Is Not Enough

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    Name: Liz
    Location: New York

    I'm 37 and have been happily married since Sept. 2002. Ivan is truly my companion in life. Our TTC journey has felt like a never ending roller coaster ride. We had an ectopic PG in Dec. 04 and in April 05 found out my IF is due to tubal abnormality. We were told IVF was our only hope. July 05 we did IVF # 1 and it was a chemical PG. We did IVF # 2 in Oct. 05 and it was a BFN. In Jan. 06 we did a combined fresh and frozen embryo transfer and it was a BFN. We were determined not to give up our dream of having a baby. IVF # 4 was in April 06. The cycle worked like a charm and on December 20, 2006 we were blessed with Hannah and Matthew.

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    Monday, April 17, 2006

    Stimming away

    They moved me up 1 day so I started Follistim 450 iu on Friday. I decreased it to 300 iu yesterday and started Luveris. I'm still on Ganirelex and Dexamethasone in the AM. Fortunately the irritability or shall I say Lupron horrormones have subsided. I'm still a little "crabby" but don't let anyone say that or I will leap on them. It was so much fun injecting at work tonight. Of course as I'm reconstituting someone knocks on my door and half my Luveris came out. I didn't have any extra so I injected what was left.

    I have noticed some bloating and lower back pain. I started eating chocolate again ...oh how I missed my comfort food.

    I go on Saturday for my monitoring. I'm trying to be positive but I'm nervous. I have to remind myself that I tend to be a slow stimmer so I shouldn't be too disappointed if they measure less then 10.

    I'm still deciding what I will do on Friday for my EDD. Ivan is working and I'm sort of glad because I can use the time alone. It's been hard keeping a strong attitude when all I want to do is cry. He knows it's coming up but won't bring it up because he's worried about how I will respond. I know it's also a loss for him but I don't think it feels the same to him.

    Off to do some work. I can't log on to blogs but I can update my blog via email. Thanks for your support and sorry that I haven't been checking on you as much as before.....wish you all the best!


    | posted by Liz at 7:37 PM |


    18 Comments:

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 11:40 PM~  

    Can't believe you inject at work...the things we have to do. Glad the side effects aren't too bad. Hope the bloating won't get worse. I know Friday will be a difficult day but do what is best for you...you need to grieve your loss and all that you have been through. Wishing you a most successful cycle. You're almost there. Crossing my fingers for lots of follies on Sat.

    Blogger Thalia commented at 4:31 AM~  

    I think you could bring up the loss with Ivan if you want to - surely it's better to hear from each other how you are feeling than to suffer alone, even if the conversation is painful?

    Hoping that the ovaries are getting busy in there.

    Blogger Jenna commented at 9:02 AM~  

    Liz,
    Is Ivan going to go with you on Saturday?
    It really isn't the same for our husbands, it is a loss to them but it is still so different. I hope that you are able to find comfort in something. I know that you will find the perfect thing to do to honor your angel.
    Hugs,
    Jenna

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 5:46 PM~  

    My husband wasn't even aware of the EDD. I didn't do anything to commemorate it. In hindsight, I wish I had. It was a hellish day. I received a sample of formula in the mail, but the postman brought it to my door and asked if I'd had a son or daughter. It would be nice to remember that date with a ceremony instead of a spiral into despair. Whatever you decide to do to honor the soul that gave you moments of joy is appropriate.

    I feel really weird admitting it, but I miss stimming. I hope this is the cycle for your dreams to come true.

    Blogger Kris commented at 8:28 PM~  

    I always remember my EDD from my miscarriage. I don't mention it to Hubs. He thinks it's better to forget. But how to forget the day that meant the world to me for a few weeks?

    There's no getting around that it's a difficult day. Remember it however you need to. I'm sorry about your EDD but am wishing you the best this cycle.

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 9:30 PM~  

    I know the EDD will be very hard. I hope you are able to talk to Ivan and both will be able to grieve your loss. Do what is best for you.

    Much luck to you with your cycle.

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 9:58 PM~  

    Liz, I know how hard the EDD will be. Hope you will find peace and comfort. Hugs and luck to you.

    Blogger Sporty commented at 8:30 AM~  

    You are in my thoughts and prayers Liz!

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 9:22 PM~  

    Sorry for your loss and what you're going through. Thinking of you and wishing you peace and continued strength.

    Blogger x commented at 11:43 PM~  

    grocery shopping without regard for price, carbs, fat or calories has been the best part of IVF.

    I am so sorry for your loss. I wish ing for lots of great follies for you.

    Blogger Fertility Faux Pas commented at 2:44 PM~  

    I wish I had some miracle piece of wisdom to pass on to you that would somehow make tomorrow easier to bear. Just know that you'll be in my thoughts. Hoping for some good news on Saturday to help you feel a little better.

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 8:13 PM~  

    I'm sorry for your pain. My thoughts are with you.

    Blogger Angie commented at 8:46 PM~  

    Good luck with this cycle and definitely take some time out for yourself tomorrow. Maybe take an afternoon walk. I'll be thinking about ya!

    Blogger jude commented at 12:33 PM~  

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    I needed something new to blog about!

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    Blogger Nico commented at 12:52 PM~  

    Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you today. I hope you're doing okay.

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 5:31 PM~  

    Thinking of you...HUGS.

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 5:56 PM~  

    May you be comforted by peace today. Know many people are thinking of you and wishing you the very best.

    M

    Anonymous Anonymous commented at 7:25 PM~  

    Sorry for your loss. Hope you're in a good place.

    Good luck with your cycle.

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