Things are going well. I'm getting use to the minor discomforts and use to the fact that I'm PG. It's been hard to accept because with acceptance comes trusting that all will be well. We all know that for us being PG does not mean the worry and the obsessing will end. Will it ever, who knows.

I've been so excited because on Saturday I stop my PIO, suppositories and start weaning off the dexamethasone. I was relieved that there wouldn't be any more shots and then I get a call yesterday from the RE's nurse stating that I tested positive for MTHFR type A & C. I have to be on Heparin until I'm 32 weeks PG (2 shots a day). It seems I will be on meds forever but it's a small price to pay to ensure that the babies will be safe.

As much as I want to trust that things will go well with the pregnancy at times I'm flooded with anxiety and must admit that lately I've been having dead baby thoughts. We have our 1st trimester screening next Wed, 6/28 and I'm scared that we will get bad news. I know it's normal but then I feel guilty for having the DBT. I start questioning whether something is wrong with me but then I come back to reality.

The bloating seems to have subsided a bit and now I'm just fat. I caved in and purchased a few maternity slacks for work. I plan on telling after next week's appointment. With the weather getting hot it's getting harder to hide the belly.

Have a good week!

I still can't believe that I'm PG. Yep, I can finally say the "p" word. I had my appointment yesterday with the maternal fetal medicine specialist. She was not there but I met with the midwife and genetic counselor. I got an u/s and boy was it great. Seeing the babies makes it real. I could actually see where the hands and feet are forming and I could see the heart beating...that was so cool. I was speechless and full of so much joy.

We've told our families and I told one of my GF. I will try to wait until at least week 11 before I tell at work but at this rate my belly might rat me out. During the u/s the tech looked at my ovaries and you could see they were still hyperstimulated. The left is starting to go down. The pain is starting to go away and I feel a little queasy during the day. No morning sickness but that overall yucky feeling all day long.

I can't believe that I'm finally here. I've waited so long and now I have two babies snuggling inside me. It truly is a dream come true. At times it's hard to find the words to express how I feel. Sometimes I get scared to express my happiness for fear of something going wrong. I'm not going to stress about that...I've got Ivan stressing about that. He is a nervous wreck...it is so cute.

I can't thank you all enough for the support that you have given me. Your words have helped me through my darkest days. I'm debating whether to continue the blog since it was an IF blog. For now I will continue but won't be posting consistently. As milestones occur I will update.